I have been studying hard core this weekend as I close in on Finals. Before I can even take my finals I still have a couple tests in A&P, a math test and a music test. Those 4 tests (pre-finals) all happen within 3 days...starting tomorrow.
Ugh. Ugh. Ugh.
So here is where I am. A sudden inspiration to blog.
Should I be taking a break?
Yes. I'm posting a blog and taking a momentary break from learning about spermatozoa and oocytes. :)
Here's what inspired me....I accidentally clicked on the FB app on my ipad...which led me to the news feed which led me to a picture of my long-time-child-hood best friend, Tabitha. I've talked about her before.
My eyes flooded with tears as I looked at a picture of her and her hubby. She looks so happy!! I miss her. All. The.Time.
Tabi and I were sister soul mates when we were younger and even though time has tried so hard to keep us apart....all these many moons later we are able to re-connect.....well, kind of anyway.
I'm a horrible communicator for one. Since school - my "Stay in touch" ability has only increasingly lacked. I don't know when it became - that I could no longer possess the ability to be the great friend and social butterfly that I was for the majority of my life.
Have I reverted back to being a terribly shy eight year old?
No. I know why. But this blog is not the time to talk about it.
Where am I going with this? I am soooo losing my train of thought.
Tabi. A friend who is a friend forever. I mean it.
I saw this picture of her and her hubby and it just made me miss her all the more.
I have been watching, "What About Brian"...a show that is truly about friendship - with a lot of other twists and turns....but that's not the point. The point is that i am STARVING for what the characters of that show have.
I had that once and it's been a long, long, long time since I have been able to find what I lost when it comes to friendships.
Tabi and I were tied at the hip - we did EVERYTHING together. We had this relationship that was a true bond of sisterhood. It was deep, meaningful and I never remember longing for what I find myself longing for this very day.
Real friendship. True and deep friendship to the core.
I have been neglectful of my friendships and I am very sorry for it.
Since school started I have made new friends, of course, but there is no meaning deep enough with these friends to fulfill the longing inside of me to have (once again) what I had with Tabi (And many many other friends) in the past.
Okay, I get it! Gotta move forward with life...right? I'm not trying to dwell on the past....I'm trying to remember how to get back to the point where I can, again, have the friendships that I need and want to have in my life.
Whoa...so serious today. I know, I know.
It's rainy and dark out - reminds me of Portland.
A lot going through my head today....
Now back to studying the Human and Fetal Pig reproductive system.
:::Question::::
Who is your most treasured child hood friend?
Peace 'n' love,
Michelle
