I have been studying hard core this weekend as I close in on Finals. Before I can even take my finals I still have a couple tests in A&P, a math test and a music test. Those 4 tests (pre-finals) all happen within 3 days...starting tomorrow.
Ugh. Ugh. Ugh.
So here is where I am. A sudden inspiration to blog.
Should I be taking a break?
Yes. I'm posting a blog and taking a momentary break from learning about spermatozoa and oocytes. :)
Here's what inspired me....I accidentally clicked on the FB app on my ipad...which led me to the news feed which led me to a picture of my long-time-child-hood best friend, Tabitha. I've talked about her before.
My eyes flooded with tears as I looked at a picture of her and her hubby. She looks so happy!! I miss her. All. The.Time.
Tabi and I were sister soul mates when we were younger and even though time has tried so hard to keep us apart....all these many moons later we are able to re-connect.....well, kind of anyway.
I'm a horrible communicator for one. Since school - my "Stay in touch" ability has only increasingly lacked. I don't know when it became - that I could no longer possess the ability to be the great friend and social butterfly that I was for the majority of my life.
Have I reverted back to being a terribly shy eight year old?
No. I know why. But this blog is not the time to talk about it.
Where am I going with this? I am soooo losing my train of thought.
Tabi. A friend who is a friend forever. I mean it.
I saw this picture of her and her hubby and it just made me miss her all the more.
I have been watching, "What About Brian"...a show that is truly about friendship - with a lot of other twists and turns....but that's not the point. The point is that i am STARVING for what the characters of that show have.
I had that once and it's been a long, long, long time since I have been able to find what I lost when it comes to friendships.
Tabi and I were tied at the hip - we did EVERYTHING together. We had this relationship that was a true bond of sisterhood. It was deep, meaningful and I never remember longing for what I find myself longing for this very day.
Real friendship. True and deep friendship to the core.
I have been neglectful of my friendships and I am very sorry for it.
Since school started I have made new friends, of course, but there is no meaning deep enough with these friends to fulfill the longing inside of me to have (once again) what I had with Tabi (And many many other friends) in the past.
Okay, I get it! Gotta move forward with life...right? I'm not trying to dwell on the past....I'm trying to remember how to get back to the point where I can, again, have the friendships that I need and want to have in my life.
Whoa...so serious today. I know, I know.
It's rainy and dark out - reminds me of Portland.
A lot going through my head today....
Now back to studying the Human and Fetal Pig reproductive system.
:::Question::::
Who is your most treasured child hood friend?
Peace 'n' love,
Michelle
Today I woke up snuggled against my pillow with my husbands hand lying across mine. It has been quite the week. Our youngest (and most spoiled) cat, Frankenstein, was cuddled up to my husbands right. It was a near perfect setting. Only thing that I can think to make it better would have been a cup of coffee and our other kitty, Goldie, to be snuggled up in the mix. It was a good morning.
This last week has tested me in more ways that I ever so desire. I am failing my math class. Yes, there. I said it. I need a 70% minimum to pass and I am at 58.45%. I have a few more tests to kick it up but the light at the end of the tunnel is quickly disappearing.
is coming but not quick enough. June 20th and I am finally free to relax a bit. I am ONLY going to take one course this summer. ......probably math but who knows, I am undecided where I stand with school at this time.
